We found a wonderful personal care home for my mother-in-law to move into once she is out of the rehab hospital. I went today to make sure everything is in place and ready for the move. What I found was what I already knew. Sally is now late-stage Alzheimer’s and they said that more than likely her body is preparing for death.
The strange thing is that I took this news like I was told she had a simple infection. I don’t know if it is because I am so incredibly tired or because it is a relief since it is incredibly hard to watch her like this. Watching someone descend into madness is beyond depressing. I don’t know what to think. I have a feeling that I have forgotten how to think. I just react anymore by simply putting one foot in front of the other.
I was told today about a support group that I really should join. It’s called Stress Busters. I signed up for their newsletter. I don’t know if I’d actually have time to go to any of the meetings. I can’t keep up with things here. I have so much to do that it makes my head spin. Speaking of, I have paperwork that needs to be done by tomorrow morning. I don’t even have time to put my own thoughts down. One day.