One of the most hideous things that can happen to you is insomnia. You wake up in the middle of the night and can’t get back to sleep. Then your brain starts running through everything that didn’t get addressed that day. It is a vicious cycle.
It is amazing what my brain can come up with at 2:00 a.m. Something that I shouldn’t give five seconds of time to suddenly gets two hours of devotion. The more you try to stop thinking about it, the more you think about it. It’s a paradox.
The worst stealer of sleep is the thought that you should really be asleep. Strange how being tired is one of the biggest reasons for not sleeping. If I am super tired, one of two things will happen. Either I can’t stay awake or I can’t get to sleep. Most of the time, it’s not being able to sleep. Tell me how that makes any sense.
On that note, I should try to go back to sleep. I’ve had trouble staying asleep all week long. It finally got to me and I could not stay awake anymore by 8:00 p.m. tonight. I went out hard. Then I was wide awake by 9:55 p.m. I had an allergic reaction to something and woke up feeling like I was on fire. I’m beginning to think I’m allergic to sleep.
I just know that I would be able to figure things out better if I could get a full night’s sleep instead of a few fragments. I’ve had my cup of tea and I’m finally starting to feel the heaviness of my eyelids. I’m one of those opposite people. When I can’t sleep, I need caffeine. If I need to stay awake, I drink water.
Time to finish up this one. I’m all over the place but it has helped. Talking is therapy. This blog is a better therapist for me than any human could provide. What is it about putting your thoughts into words that makes your mind calm down? I don’t know but I better run while the yawning is still happening.