I have to say that 2017 was the most challenging year of my life. If you go off of posts on Facebook, I’m not alone. It was a tough year for many of us. On the flip side, it was an awesome year for many of us. I have to say that I spent the majority of it feeling overwhelmed with anger, resentment, and just plain tired thrown in. I ended it feeling grateful that I had a year full of so many lessons and grateful that I had survived it!
2017 started out with a text from a sister yelling at me while I was going through what we think was an early miscarriage. That was on January 1. The year just got more lovely after that. A couple of weeks later, my father-in-law was in the hospital for the last time. Then all the other parents started going downhill fast. It was a year of putting out fires one right after another. Now my parents have settled into their routine in a nursing home just 10 minutes away. My mother-in-law is in a care home in the late stages of Alzheimer’s. She’s in the sleeping all the time and not responding to any type of stimulus phase. That leaves me a chance to get caught up.
The thing that truly saved me through all of this are the various personal growth books and webinars that I would get in every chance I got. I have to say that the majority of them centered around changing my mindset. Mine sucked. I was stuck in that anger and resentment phase. I was stuck in the victim phase. Yes, we weren’t getting any help from siblings. That is their own karma they are going to have to deal with one day. I’m done even thinking about them anymore. No, I needed to fix my brain. I also felt I needed to fix it to avoid dementia, Parkinson’s, and Alzheimer’s.
Back in November, I started an online course with T. Harv Eker about the spiritual laws of money. I love listening to him. His voice gets a bit shrill at times but he can dish out the tough love! I didn’t realize that was what I was needing. Tough love. It’s definitely snapped me out of my funk. Anyway, his program is helping me to see my hang-ups in regards to money. Apparently, I have a lot! I’m having a little trouble with this week’s lesson. It’s on money and fear. The mantra that we are to repeat several times a day is “I act in spite of fear.” Yeah, that one isn’t setting in very well.
I did get past one of my fears. I finally submitted some of my photography to a stock photo site. It took me a couple of tries to get things right so that it was accepted. Now I just need to get more added to my account. This is one of my photos that I took during the great snow storm of 2017!
I was so excited about this one because I finally got the blue sky and clouds to show up right. You would not believe how much I have struggled with capturing the sky right. I had always taken photos using the auto setting but I decided that I needed control over my photography as well. I went into manual mode and let the frustrations begin!! I’m glad that I made the switch. It’s made a big difference in what I’m getting out of my camera. I have an online photography course to thank for that as well.
Last week I started another new little course. It’s with Jim Qwik from Qwik Learning. The man is a genius when it comes to learning. Talk about a superbrain! If you don’t know him, look him up on Instagram. He does quite a few live videos on there. He’s been teaching us how to improve our brains. Our memory is 1/3 genetics and the other 2/3 is up to us. He’s been teaching us all the things we need from nutrition to techniques for memorization.
I can’t get over how much my brain has woken up since I’ve been doing his exercises. I had hit a point where I thought I had lost the ability to get my brain working ever again. In a few short days, I’m remembering better than I did as a child. That’s actually part of his method. You make things fun and silly like you did when you were a child to help you remember. An example would be his foods that help your brain the most. I think of an avocado hat, blueberries coming out of my nose, broccoli growing out of my mouth, coconut oil flowing out of my ears, and the rest is very similar. Now I can tell you right away that you need avocado, blueberries, broccoli, coconut oil, eggs, green leafy vegetables, salmon/sardines, turmeric, walnuts, and dark chocolate in your diet. I don’t know of a time when I was able to ramble off a list of 10 that quickly. Oh, and water. You need lots and lots of water. I’m bad about not drinking enough water.
I did have something interesting happen during the last weekend of 2017. I won $25 on a non-winning scratch off lottery ticket. My husband stuck a couple of small scratch off tickets in my Christmas gift that I won on. So I decided to trade them in and get the next value of ticket. None of the numbers matched up and I thought I had lost on the ticket. I decided to check it using the app on my phone. It said I had won $25! I took it to the store yesterday and had actually won $25 on a non-winning ticket! I traded it in for a couple more tickets and took out the original $10. That’s what I’m going to do this year. I’m going to turn winners out of non-winners and change my luck.
What this all boils down to is the fact that I’m actually looking forward to 2018. It’s not starting out on fabulous footing but that’s okay. I can live with that. It just feels good to have hope again. It also feels good to know that I can survive being slammed by one life storm after another and continue to stand. Good-bye, 2017. I can’t say that I’m going to miss you. Hello, 2018. I welcome you with open arms and an open heart. Let’s get this party rolling!
Happy New Year!! May you have a fabulous 2018 with an abundance of wealth, good health, and happiness!