Oxygen Mask

My life got hit by another hurricane. Actually, it’s probably still the same one and these are the outer bands of the longest lasting hurricane ever! I find myself feeling as though I’m spinning out of control a bit more like I’m stuck in the middle of a tornado. These mental natural disasters are killing me! That leaves me turning to anything and everything, almost everything, to find a way to get my mind to chill and not think about it as much.

Hay House sent out an email about energy vampires last week. I remember her first name was Christiane. I think that was the first Christian spelled with an E on the end and female that I’ve ever come across. I normally don’t feel good vibes from people named Christian but she was different. Maybe it was that E. Watching her videos helped to calm me down considerably. It also made me realize how vulnerable I am to energy vampires. The biggest one in my life is my mother. Her dementia is going to kill me.

I wanted to watch as much of the World Tapping Summit as I could but I only caught the last day. Have you heard of EFT? EFT is Emotional Freedom Techniques. It helps you fix issues by tapping on meridian points. I can’t remember the name of the woman but she did a tapping session in the form of a prayer. Talk about powerful! I found myself with tears running down my cheeks. I don’t think I’ve ever had a reaction to anything like I did that morning.

This morning I read about a YouTube series of videos by Brad Yates for tapping. I followed along with a couple of his. The last one I did was on allowing miracles to occur in your life. Oh my goodness. I became so extremely tired in the middle of that one. It only lasted five minutes but I seriously did not think that I was going to be able to stay awake that long. As soon as it was over, I laid my head on my desk and went out for over 30 minutes. That is probably a good thing since I had a long night.

My blood pressure has been running rather high and I’ve been getting those annoying blood pressure headaches. If you get them, you know what I’m talking about. It’s that feeling of a jack hammer running back and forth along the back of your head. It was so bad last night that it kept me awake. I did take it and it was a wee bit high. Don’t yell, people love to yell at me when I say what my blood pressure reading was at, but it was at 217/130. Sad to say that isn’t my highest reading. It was high enough that I was a bit nervous that I’d go to sleep and not wake up. That was more than likely the real source of my insomnia last night.

During my insomnia, I sat up watching videos about ho’oponopono. I’ve read about it some before in the past but I never really grasped the purpose of it. It’s all about cleaning. You are cleaning your energy. With this practice, you take full responsibility for yourself, what happens to you, and even the people who you cross paths with along the way. I wonder if this is where Grant Cardone got the idea of you are responsible for everything came from.

Anyway, it slapped me across the face with something that I’ve been trying to drill into my brain the past couple of months. You have to put on your own oxygen mask first before you put it on others. I feel like I’ve been putting on masks on everyone on the planet and still haven’t even touched my own. I’m so oxygen deprived that I’m turning blue. No wonder my blood pressure is up and my energy levels are depleted.

So the question then becomes, how do you break this habit of putting others first? My mother basically trained me to be this way when I was a little girl. I have no idea how to break away from the grasps of this habit. All I know is that I want another nap but the neighbor is mowing and I have to get these taxes done today.

I now know what my greatest desire in the world is…a nap.

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