It finally happened last night. I fell apart. I hit rock bottom so hard that it hurt. It had been an incredibly long week physically, mentally, and emotionally. I had to run to the store for one item and it hit me on the way home. I started crying and couldn't stop. I simply sat … Continue reading Broken
I arrived at my mother-in-law's hospital room this afternoon to find another version of Sally. She was agitated, convinced she had witnessed a horrific fight, and refused to eat. She knew who I was but not really where she was at. I've gotten used to the fact that dementia and Alzheimer's can change up personalities … Continue reading Delirium is Making Me Delirious
Well, we started today in our usual way. We got a call from the nursing home letting us know that my mother-in-law was already in an ambulance headed towards the emergency room. They thought she had a seizure plus her blood pressure was at 85/33. Time to put on shoes and head out. It's just … Continue reading Tomorrow is Another Day
A few nights ago I had an epiphany in the middle of the night. I realized that no one cared about what it is I was going through at the moment. By that I don't mean that they literally don't care, they just have their own life and they have no time to be pulled … Continue reading New Attitude
When you're a caregiver, they tell you to make sure and put your needs first. I have a one word response to that. How? We've all heard the instructions on the airplane. In case of an emergency, air bags will fall from above and you should secure yours first before helping someone else with theirs. … Continue reading Me First?!?
My mother-in-law has now been in the hospital for nine days. She is supposed to be getting out today. They were going to transport her by ambulance so we came on back to get her clean clothes back to the nursing home. It's now after 6:00 p.m. and she still isn't on the road! We … Continue reading Tired. Just tired.
I have to say that writing really is the best therapy. I shouldn't have spent the money to set up this site but it was an incentive to get me to write. It's the one thing that has stayed a constant in my life and can calm me down faster than a piece of chocolate. … Continue reading Dark and Stormy Night
This is just simply getting ridiculous. You would not believe what the last three days have been like. There are days when I wonder how this is even my life. It's hard to imagine that so much can happen in such a compact amount of time. I had to take my mother in on Thursday … Continue reading Stop raining on me!!!
We've all seen those articles talking about things learned from a pet. I'm sure we've all also said, "Yeah, right! What can you learn from your pet?" Well, I found out this past week that it can be quite a bit. We had to take in my mother-in-law's dog, Buddy. Buddy is a very gentle … Continue reading Lessons from the Cat
The one thing you should expect when it comes to aging parents is the unexpected. Though I really can't truly say this was unexpected since we kind of knew it was coming. The signs were all there. Yes, I got a call from the hospital at 6:00 a.m. saying my mother-in-law was confused and needed … Continue reading Forecast: Unexpected Squalls